My relationship with food and my body, was my biggest struggle in life so far, but also has been the most amazing journey and biggest learning experience. I believe that everything happens for a reason and therefore I understand now, that I had to go through a lot, in order to be able to find my mission, of helping others to overcome the same struggles.
From my own story, I know how desperate and overwhelming it can feel to have a distorted body image and how all topics around food can feel like a constant battle. When thoughts around food and the way you look, take over your whole being and keeps you from living your dreamlife. I felt like I would never be able to live freely again until I discovered the path of self development. I am indefinitely grateful to have grown into the person a am today, as I am the most pure, happy and healthy version of myself possible and found my purpose in helping you to get there as well.
Let me show you how beautiful it can be to be able to trust your body, to nourish yourself with healthy food, finding freedom of the constant battle about food in your mind and loving yourself unconditionally.
MORE ABOUT MY STORY
I grew up in a very open minded family in a town in the middle of Germany and remember my childhood as very peaceful and protected, even though I went through some bullying in school, as my family always stood out with their very bohemian lifestyle and my Mediterranean look. We only ate organic food and I grew up as a vegetarian and with natural medicine. We did not have a TV and I played a lot outside in nature. It was a good life.
When I was 9 years old, my little twin siblings were born and shortly after that my parents separated. I felt left alone and neglected, as my safe space suddenly felt like falling apart. I started to comfort myself with food, especially sweets and got into a binging behaviour. When I went on a high school exchange to the United States, my unhealthy eating behaviour got into the most extreme, by staying with a very overweight and unhealthy hostfamily, and I gained 6kg in just one month. After having gained 17kg in the next months, I changed to a very healthy and conscious family, and for the first time, started to gain knowledge about calories, nutrition facts and started to exercise sports. I slimmed down in a short period of time and got a lot of positive reactions on it, which finally gave me the attention I had been craving for all the time. It motivated me to keep on loosing weight and slowly but surely drifted into anorexia. As I had already moved out of my mothers place with 16 years old, right after coming back from the US, no one noticed how I started to eat less and less until at one point I only had a small bun and an apple a day. It took a while until I realized that I had an issue about eating and even more time until I admitted to myself that I would need help to get out of there. With the great support of my friends, I booked myself in a three month retreat and slowly had to learn how to eat again and also started to dig deeper into the causes of my eating disorder.
It was a journey of some years to fully heal inside and outside, but on the path I learned how to connect with my intuition and the indefinite wisdom of my body, learned about the different foods and what nourishes the body, became sugar and alcohol free, learned how to accept and love myself unconditionally, and most importantly: I gained freedom from the constant battle that I was having around food in my mind.
For years I had felt like the thoughts about food were occupying my whole mind and therefore my life and it felt impossible to get out of this spiral. Therefore it was the most liberating feeling, to finally live my life like I wanted and dedicating myself to all the beautiful things life has to offer.
Since I have already gone through all obstacles, I see it as my purpose and vision to help others break the circle of struggles with food; no matter if it is emotional eating, binge eating or anorexia and show you that it is possible to live a life free from guilt and shame, feeling good and pure in your body and with the world around you.